I just woke up thinking it was much later in the night than it really is. It’s only 1am. I’m typing this in my phone so don’t mind the typos and grammar. My mind is racing through all the things I need to do and I wonder about. I’m wondering how all this will turn out. I’ve lived most of my adult life being able to provide for my family through a consistent salary. Now I’m at a place where I am learning things totally foreign and new.
We are moving to Australia to be missionaries. I know rough place right. Australia is beautiful. They speak english with a cool accent. They have some of the most beautiful beaches in the world. I’m not going to a third world country so it doesn’t seem like a missionary journey at all.
But the question that still lingers in my mind daily. How will I provide for my family? I realised I was asking the wrong question. I recently thanked my friend who started his support for us and shared with him how humbled I was by his gift. His reply to me, “Get used to it my friend … God is going to do things during the next couple of years that will blow your mind much more than a couple of dollars!!” My question should be: How will I respond to God as he provides through his faithful followers? I’m not only learning to trust God, I’m learning to trust others in His family.
I’m learning to let go of my security and grabbing onto His. I’m stepping out of my insecurity and learning to walk in security of the Father. God’s economy is so much different than ours. My economy says make it happen, His says trust me. My economy adds up my failures, His economy is mercy and grace. Mine says I can do it, His says let me do it. While mine realises I can’t do it, His says it is finished. I have found my whole way of thinking is being turned upside down.
I recently heard a sermon in which a pastor was telling the story of a time when he was in Mexico with a friend who was a navy seal. It was the two of them and a few young boys stopping somewhere to get a bite to eat. He all the sudden realised he was by himself with the son of the navy seal and didn’t see any of the other boys or the other dad. He started to panic and asked the young man where are all the other boys. The boy plainly and calmly replied saying, “Relax my dad is here.” The faith the young man had in his earthly father as a navy seal to handle the situation even though he couldn’t see him was profound and his point was clear. If God is so much better than a navy seal than why do we freak out? Why not put things back into perspective and calmly reply to the situation, “Relax my dad, the king of kings, is here.” After all He owns the cattle on a thousand hills. By the way He owns the hills too.
“for every animal of the forest is mine, and the cattle on a thousand hills. I know every bird in the mountains, and the insects in the fields are mine.” (Psalm 50:10-11 NIV)
“I will sing of the Lord’s great love forever; with my mouth I will make your faithfulness known through all generations. I will declare that your love stands firm forever, that you have established your faithfulness in heaven itself.” (Psalm 89:1-2 NIV)
“I will sing of the Lord’s great love forever; with my mouth I will make your faithfulness known through all generations. I will declare that your love stands firm forever, that you have established your faithfulness in heaven itself. The heavens praise your wonders, Lord, your faithfulness too, in the assembly of the holy ones. For who in the skies above can compare with the Lord? Who is like the Lord among the heavenly beings? In the council of the holy ones God is greatly feared; he is more awesome than all who surround him. Who is like you, Lord God Almighty? You, Lord, are mighty, and your faithfulness surrounds you. You rule over the surging sea; when its waves mount up, you still them. The heavens are yours, and yours also the earth; you founded the world and all that is in it.” (Psalm 89:1-2, 5-9, 11 NIV)